Today is the first day of the:
Today's theme is supposed to be: Tell you something about myself. Well, I am going to tell you something I experienced recently. I am sorry in advance, it's a little sad.
Many, many things have happend this April (yes, I know this is the first of May), but I want to share something with you that was devastating to many people in my community, even though I didn't personally know the person I will talk about next.
I am from a small town, I know a lot of you know how that is--you know everyone, and even if you don't, it's like...when anything happens to anyone there it's as if they are "one of you." It touches you, hurts, you even. Well, a man in his late thirties whose stepson I worked with, died in a terrible car accident. He lived for about two days after. I'm not sure if he regained consciouness. I don't know how many goodbyes he heard. I'm not actually sure of anything except that there was a terrible, terrible car accident and he passed away.
This reminded me of my friend Ben who passed away after being in a terrible car accident the day after he graduated from High School. The day after. I had just seen him. Never expected that the motorcyle wreck the week before might have foreshadowed his death. Unfortuantely, life doesn't work like a novel. You aren't going to expect things. Half his friends were in Italy when he died. The rest of us went to his funeral. Never would I have thought his life would have been taken so suddenly, even though I know two mothers who lost their sons previously and unexpecedly. My point--it happens all the time, but you never expect things to happen to you.
You don't think about how short life is sometimes. Sometimes you don't even think about whether or not you'll see your boyfriend, husband, bestfriend, even child tomorrow. You take this as a given. You take it for granted, but life doesn't. God doesn't. Whoever you believe in, or what you don't believe in--they don't take life for granted.
I would never sadden anyone intentionally, but this really struck a chord with me, and I thought about why I alway feel like I'm running out of time. It's because really...life is short. If I don't do what I want now...if I don't try, what will I regret later? What kind of legacy will I leave with settling? With not trying to live my dreams, or achieve my dreams?
It's an old, perhaps cliche saying, but don't forget: don't take life for granted. Follow your dreams. Remember that everyday is really a gift. Everything DOES work out in the end, and most importantly--you are the only one who can make changes in your life. So if you are unhappy, do something about it.
I love you all. <3